呵呵首先说,我终于肯写了。不过前一段不写也是有原因的,知道原因的人们都知道原因。恩。。。
我要说的是,最近我很有感想那。我一直在观察,中学同学们变化真的都很大,高中万人景仰的一等一等生门,就算是现在清华北大人大了,竟然全体都是平庸的不能在平庸。原来这年头文化知识科学技术真的比不上那可爱的外表们。。。
以前成绩平庸甚至很差的学生现在都很光鲜啊(好吧,我就算是一半一半好了,我当时虽然算不上差生,但也没省老师家长什么心吧)。但是我觉得我现在看起来还好了,哦HOHO。
因为生活方式不一样,还有人生观价值观。那些天天玩的很HIGH的光鲜童鞋们其实在我看来,生活满空虚的。小恋爱,小友情;没事逛个小游乐园,唱个小K什么的。等着虚度完这几年大学,在找个破地方实个习,找个工作,嫁个人,这辈子就过完了诶。哦,撑死了,嫁个有钱人家的儿子,生活条件奢侈点,炫个富什么的。
我真不是鄙视也不是贬低这种生活,我只是想表达这样的生活程式对我来说是多么多么的可怕。我也不是说我有什么雄心壮志发射个什么火箭什么的,但是我只是想,除了玩,我至少还知道我要什么,我该干点什么,并且我确实在努力。我要我的一辈子过完之前回头看看我至少折腾了,没有就那么平平淡淡的过来。
也许这篇文章有点矫情,并且有一些嫉妒羡慕的成分,我嫉妒他们能谈小感情,能滋滋润润的黏着爸妈,而我在这边孤独寂寞的努力着就想有点成就。我就是嫉妒,但是我又那么现实不肯放弃这边的生活,所以我写这个,来表达我多么的不屑于那样滋润的小生活。
我不知道我该怎么结尾了,觉得没说完,但是不知道还要说什么。总之就是发泄一下吧。
and there are some new students coming almost everyday, as second year students, we have to pick them up and help them with the big or small things in school or daily life, so i'm pretty busy which is good coz i don't need to think about other things that disturb me a lot. also, as always, i'm looking for a part time job, it's extremely hard recently bacause of the financial crises.
and i need to learn dansk, very urgent, very very urgent. i need it, but it is so hard to learn coz i know nothing about it and i can haardly find someone to practise with. i can only learn a language when i use it. and i need to charge my laundry card but i don't know how, it seems i can't charge it by myself coz i don't have the condition, so i have to somehow find the administrator of the apartment and ask him. but i am just busy and i have soooo no time to do it.
problems... many
but, in general, i'm good.
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